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beautifulYou used to say, "You're beautiful",
with eyes on mine and racing pulse.
And I had to close my eyes,
craving for silence to deceive me.
Now, when you whisper it to me,
eyes closed holding me in the dark,
I secretly wish it to be true.
And I want you...all of you.
Hoping to hang on to those moments
when our hearts race for all the wrong reasons;
I catch your eyes lingering
too long on my dreaming face.
Soon you become accustomed to my voice,
and you listen.
You say, "Hey Beautiful"
I reply, "Hey You".
I know you, like the lines of your face
that I traced while you fell half dreaming.
And I reluctantly fell for you,
but not completely.
No, not ever.
But I continue...to fall.
rush into wonderTears on my fingertips
And a smile on my pillow
takes us away
Into moments of gladness
and sometimes sadness
5 weeks and you said
5 weeks and I've been
holding on to hope
and I don't know what
So what about you?
Did you mean to run
When I've been walking?
Did you miss something
When I was talking?
Loud and clear
It must've been messy
And static from that distance
or were you dreaming ahead
Of a girl made up
of everything but
What you didn't hear
in the dark
So in silence I say
"There's no rush"
My watch stops
When I inhale
Then you give me a bell
to ring when I breathe again
1 week of numbness
and I wonder
How long it will be
'til we dance again?
an apologyApologies to the one who feels
Say the word and it would be done.
Minds in tune though unlinked
Moved by influence from another.
Say not in silence for I am blind
Blow that whisper directly.
Pain was never intended
Though felt here and there.
autumn's fallTip toed into Autumn's breathe
and blew secret silent smoke bubbles;
kissing the black face of Night
and for a moment painting moving pictures in the dark.
The old wrinkly tree politely stood his distance;
half illuminated by shadow and the twinkling eyes of Heaven.
Bare limbs outstretched as if offering me comfort;
acknowledging the spectre plaguing me
- my perpetual hate and love.
As ash cried into the earth,
Autumn danced around me more insistently.
While I delighted in the exchange
my body shivered and regretfully refused to numb.
I wished Heaven good-night;
and gave thanks to the old one with a waning smile.
Retiring to my world to dream once more;
ever with the company of Loneliness
Dedicated to the Albino FiloThe ages are not long enough
for my arms don't stretch that far.
Though, my arms reach to embrace you,
the memory of which I hope
will last eternal.
The path we've trod familiar -
now gone but not forgotten;
brings us here to cross roads
to go forth as friends
much like kin (unlike our own);
to discover what has yet to be revealed.
Our pains manifest our passions,
intertwined in comradery.
Such loyalty to our hearts of hearts,
and honoured by the strength held by our spirits.
So let us rejoice in what our hands can hold;
And hold what's left in our hearts.
ephemeralI never was one to seek out such things.
I thought I might have wanted that once;
disillusioned by Hollywood cliches that made fantasy real.
I always wondered about that -
the magick that is love.
I never trusted that spell;
too afraid of what could happen.
In the between times
When I'm not laying there
eyes closed with a breath on my skin.
When I don't hear the faceless voice
that interrupts my dreams.
When I can't hear those silent words
that stirs the soul in I....
When I've stopped laughing
and there's just silence.
Could I have fallen in love
with that moment?
With the taken?
With the absent?
With the memory?
With the thought of being in love?
"You're falling asleep".
Because that perfect moment will
only last forever in my dreams.
So it is...
FOR COWARDS AND FOOLSJust melt into the shadows and silence
and cower inside yourself.
Let that false scenario play over again
in ignorance and insecurity.
Lie in the path of your own truth
without those answers justified.
And you think you feel the fool...
if only you knew.
Rage at the smile hiding your forked tongue,
and those sweet tainted memories;
And when your eyes deceived your lips
whenever you said "I love you".
a goodbyegood bye, my brother.
we were friends once, though i forget your voice
did you know mine?
...and your hand not seen for years, lost in time and distance
- no one is to blame as our hands were always busy
and then they were full
you never understood me, you never knew me
so it was, i didn't either
my tears fall bitterly
and forever it will be
for i will never know what time could've changed
but i go on
....and i have changed
He AloneLast I looked it was 3:38am
and the heaving hulk,
laying back against me,
was not my lover.
Lust and loneliness delivered him here
with a heart deprived of hope,
seeking nothing more than a moment
to satisfy his appetite for licentiousness.
Empty lips moved blind
in the room near suffocated by darkness;
save for the ribbons of piercing street light
that sliced through the slits of the sleeping windows.
Longing left me listless,
and soon my mind found solace
in recent revelations with another
- a future yet to be explored.
But the reverie finally diminished,
dissolving into a blinking dreamless slumber
and how Time mocked me,
unapologetically and unrelentless.
With the burnt butter sunrise
and a froth speckled sky,
we emerged raw and naked
from the tangle of our tarnished friendship.
I charged into the day,
wielding indifference and shielded by apathy;
while he fell victim to his own growing self conscious
and the battle within that stuck him surreptiously.
And there he stood
You Were Not An Aquarium BoySea-glass became your bones,
brine your blood, and seashells
melded into your skin.
You were not quite an ocean
when you said "This is your sign to love me."
My body was like a building;
tall, cold, almost unbreakable.
I was metallic and sharp,
towering over your waters.
I remember taking your hand in mine,
conch and coral shells scrubbing
my skyscraper wrists, and laughing
about how one day you would
submerge every last bit of me.
Your lips, riddled with argonauts,
found my cheek and I cringed
at the coarseness.
You asked if they bothered me
and I finally told you "I
think I love you."
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